a different life

everything is different. its kinda weird. my close friends i hardly ever see cuz they live forever away. and then my other friends, some i used to be close with, some im not really sure if im close with , and then everyone else i see somethimes. i have this new friend..hes pretty cool haha...well i guess i have a few new friends ...:) my bible study on sunday nights rocks, as does the bible study leader...shes kinda my new remodel ..haha its cool...i deff feel like im changing, thats kinda cool and weird at the same time as well...idk im like rambling haha...oh! and i gots a job :) steak n shake...one of the mangers thinks il go far haha...to bad he doesnt know i dont plan on being there more then 3-4 years...and then personal trainer! bam! haha :) its gonna be pretty wicked awesome...the people i train wont know what hit them..and i will deff tell them steak n shake is a BIG! no!no! haha well unless its in moderation.....i really wanna work with the morbid obese...because its such a biiigggg issue in america...and personally it makes me mad and sad at the same time that a person can get that way....

oh! and i have decided i have a phobia of being in a relationship...idk why ..i think its from past experiences or something...yeah thats like a blahh blahh blah blahh story haha but anyways its weird....sooo i have decided to get over my phobia ...the next person who asks me out...ima gonna say yes!... its pretty crazy ...but ima gonna do it...unless that person is my ex or is a creepy stalker..or a a ax killer...yeah then its a no lol.....no one knows this though ...so we shall see what happens hahaha...

free at last!

i am FREE! honestly and truely. i have been finally able to let it all go. ive tried to do it for so long. but now i can honestly say i am free. your memory will always be there, the memory of who you once were. i pray one day you will achieve your hearts goals and praise God for it. but i am free and i have fully given everything i ever felt for you and against you up to the Lord. and i can't wait to see what the future has in store, what God has in store! iv taken my past out to the curb, and dumped it. it does not define me. it never did. I AM FREE!

Luke 17:32
Remember Lot’s wife!